More Munoz: In the latest New Haven Advocate, Ana explores the symbolism of the Larry Kramer Initiative's new exhibit on homosexual history at Yale - in Sterling Memorial Library: the most moving pieces hanging triumphantly in Sterling today are testimonies of narrowly avoided defeat. Over and over again, former Yalies, many of whom went on to important careers as authors, artists, scholars, speak of college as a suicidal time, a time of self-discovery with fatal consequences. Larry Kramer's piece describes the time he swallowed a bottle of aspirin. Stuart Kellog, who went on to become the first editor-in-chief of the national gay publication The Advocate , tried to kill himself as an undergrad. The power of The Pink and the Blue lies in this stark juxtaposition between the library's lofty posture, so quintessentially Yale, and the way that pressure of Yale's ambition has so often forced curious, honest souls into a descent. The four years undergraduates spend inside Yale's lofty walls are really about admitting who you are, declaring identities you've always felt but never put boundaries and words to. If Sterling Memorial Library is a place students return to countless times on the quest for self-disclosure, then Katz and his colleagues were right to house their exhibit here. It is perhaps the most important history of individual scholarship at Yale, one where students boldly uncovered their true selves and almost suffered fatal consequences.